okay. So yesterday was zoo. 18 bucks just to walk around the hot enclosed place. Saw lotsa animals getting hanky panky. And yes , it was fun because i get to see all the animals! I Survived the insect trail okay! CHEE SHENG LOSER. Had fun wasting my shutter counts and taking pictures. Love my DSLR. And HOHO, my uncles lenses can be used ! MACRO SHOTS! I'm gonna work hard and read up on all this design stuff. jiayou sam.
Sigh , i'm jealous now. Jealous of girls getting to say "i miss my bitches!" or something else like "meet up soon babes!" All i get to say is , " Hey suckers , go out tonight leh" . Dont worry , by poly i'll be having lotsa girl friends , I think. And i'm quite excited to start my poly life (: And no , i'm not excited because i get to meet and get with more new guys. T.T (mylooksarenotappealinganyway). So , TEEHEE! i cant wait to get in. Though no one in my school's going into visual comms , i know i'll be able to make friends fast. Working with strangers helped alot in making me more sociable. RIGHT SUFI? (:
Btw , i miss them lots. sufi , siti , ci , hua. (: I wonder if they happen to miss my presence? oh , and that homefix guy too. and plus the famous amos crew. . See i made so many new friends. I confess , i dont like to meet new people. Really dont like. As much as i dislike it, i still make effort to break out of my shell. The feeling you get after talking to someone you used to dislike knowing goes something like " wooahhh , now we're back on track(: " You'll feel this weird happiness inside. Whether it's just a simple smile or the slight tilt of the head to go "hey , isnt that her?" , the fact that i gained recognition from these friends i that kinda lost just makes me feel life is so damn awesome. But there's always this one lousy fella that i've never been able to communicate with properly. nehmind luh.. liddat then extraordinary muh. (self consoling) * unleashes that bat *
First day of work was awesomely boring. The work given is boring. At least i get bored because i've got more things to do than get bored because i have nothing to do. Or in other words , i'm getting bored of getting busy. But over all , the boss is friendly , staff's treat me like their sister. They got shock at my age when i told them i'm 17 this year. ( i still feel damn 16-ish can, cause i just turned 16 like aprox 4 months ago?) They said i'm sucha good girl to start working for my own money now ! ^^ ( there's no better emoticon than that kay.)
I havent been thinking alot. 'Cause the moment i hit the bed my eyes will auto enter into sleep mode. I'll tell people " no i'm not gonna sleep yet" or " no i'm not too sleepy yet" and then fall asleep right after it. Then i'll wake at 3am+ and go " ARGH DAMN! ): " . After which is the hard part , 'cause i wont be able to fall asleep that quickly . :/ *shrugs* Dont ask me why i'm weird. Being weird is the only thing that keeps samantha special (:
I'm bored :/ i just measured my pinky. It's the length of the diameter of 2 and a half 10cent coins. -.- and i keep peeling );
I've spoken enough rubbish. I'm either going to sleep , or going to watch teevee and wait for my phone to zzt zzt zzt (vibration sound).
GOOOOOODBYE.
So what now. There's a funeral going on downstairs and their chanting as though the louder they chant , the higher the dead man's sould will be risen up to heaven. (highly unlikely). Try being alone at home at sucha time as this. Your house is silent and all you can hear is the chanting from the lower deck. What do you do? well , just pick up your guitar and start jamming some christian songs. Didnt mean to be sarcastic , i was just chasing my fear away.
So , i've got a new DSLR and to what fredy said , YES I CAN HAOLIAN ALR. But owning one doesnt make me a professional in photography. I'm gonna work hard and read up on the skills. Jovan said i was totally crazy to be spending so much on my camera. But when i intended to get the camera , the first purpose and reason why i wanted to get it was because i hope i can take a family photo with grandma using this camera. A decent Family portrait.
That day grandma called me. In her eyes, i'm always that smart little girl in the family. We chatted and we laughed on the phone. Despite the language barrier that was there , we spoke our hearts and concerns out . Love my grandma and grandpa. I'm so excited to see them again on chinese new year. I think if they were to leave the earth , i'll cry my heart out because i'll miss them. But of course i'll rejoice later cause i'm assured that they're going upupup to heaven. grandma told me to follow my heart. And to take the chance when i'm young to explore into my personal interest. We share the same perspective!
tomorrow i'm going to the zoo. and i'm totally excited about it okay! (:
another thing to address . What do you do when you think you're gonna be replaced? It's like , you know it's gonna happen somehow. Or maybe i dont know. But my gut tells me that it's gonna be sooner or later. Is that my gut ? or is that just me not trusting? This is tough and it's got me thinking. I think i'll be so lost at the time when i'm replaced. it'll be like , poof and you're gone. Then i'll go , hoho .. shutts...what do i do next? Sigh , samantha , you veh jialat eh.
I've got nuffthing else to say here. GOOODBYE.
I dont want to run. I'll just sit , watch and wait for you to leave. (:
Firefox ! i choose youuuu!
This is the scenario. My phone rings at 8 plus , i woke up and read the text. But that's not the point. I fall back asleep at till 10 and my mom came to tell me she's heading off for work. That's not the point too because i love my mom. The thing that makes me go WTS! is that drilling and knocking going on after that when i'm tryna get more sleep. What on earth is my neighbour doing in the early morning when we're all still sleeping? ps: i love my neighbour. Its like, i slept so late last night and so please give me more time to sleep! Then they just start knocking and drilling. Mega combo okay. with the fact that there's ALSO construction for the hospital going on across the road. But anyway , i shut all the windows and burried under my pillow=patrick to block off the noise. I was so tempted to shout "EH PEOPLE STILL SLEEPING LAH , CAN YOU DRILL LATER?" then on second thoughts , that's not something nice to do. Yesssss , i know that you fellas dont care about all this crap that i'm talking about now. I'm just spilling it out to make my day better. Well , i just woke up half an hour ago. And , i'm hungry. (:
GOOOOOOOOODBYE.
The longer it takes , the harder it gets. bingo.
If papers represented hearts , then falling in love would be sticking two papers together.
Once you tear the two papers apart , it'll have ugly scars and marks.
Falling in and out of love is like sticking and tearing the papers apart repeatedly.
hmmmmm , so if those young girls and guys keep falling in and out of love , then they're hearts are gonna be so damaged.
Poor thing.
conclusion , Guard your heart?
ps: i'm not bored. I'm just thinking randomly.
